“I love everything that flows,” said the great
blind Milton of
our times. I was thinking of him this morning when I awoke with a great bloody
shout of joy: I was thinking of rivers and trees and all that world of night
which he is exploring. Yes, I said to myself, I too love everything that flows:
rivers, sewers, lava, semen, blood, bile, words, sentences. I love the amniotic
fluid when it spills out of the bag. I love the kidney with its painful
gallstones, its gravel and what-not; I love the urine that pours out scalding
and the clap that runs endlessly; I love the words of hysterics and the
sentences that flow on like dysentery and mirror all the sick images of the
soul; I love the great rivers like the Amazon and the Orinoco, where crazy men
like Moravagine float on through the dream and legend in an open boat and
drown in the blind mouths of the river. I love everything that flows, even the
menstrual flow that carries away the seed unfecund. I love scripts that flow,
be they hieratic, esoteric, perverse, polymorph, or unilateral. I love
everything that flows, everything that has time in it and becoming, that brings
us back to the beginning where there is never end: the violence of the
prophets, the obscenity that is ecstasy, the wisdom of the fanatic, the priest
with his rubber litany, the foul words of the whore, the spittle that floats
away in the gutter, the milk of the breast and the bitter honey that pours from
the womb, all that is fluid, melting, dissolute and dissolvent, all the pus and
dirt that in flowing is purified, that loses its sense of origin, that makes
the great circuit toward death and dissolution. The great incestuous wish is to
flow on, one with time, to merge the great image of the beyond with the here
and now. A fatuous, suicidal wish that is constipated by words and paralyzed by
thought.
-Henry Miller